I wrote this blog on November 9, 2006 on my friendster blog.
today, I finally saw the real MARK.
I see him so perfect before, he was too good to be true. I THOUGHT I know him. He's my best friend and I have known him for years but now he showed me his real color.--a selfish, obnoxious, a sham.
Weeks have passed after our break up but still, I’m not yet ready to move on until something happened today. I saw him with another girl, the girl I used to talk about in my recent blog [I planted my tree of life in him]. It was late at night when we finish our practice in cheering, I saw them together. It was raining. My tears are falling with the rain. I had no umbrella, ‘coz my umbrella is still in him. Good thing my friends are there. When we ride the jeep, I saw them crossing the street. The rain had stopped. I cried so hard. So hard, that the passengers in the jeepney could hear it. My friends decided to accompany me in my house ‘coz they were afraid that I might do something bad. While walking on the street, I can’t hardly breathe and walk because of so much crying and because of it I lose my balance and collapse. My friends carried me to my house, they lay me down in the sofa. They say that I was like possessed by a bad spirit. My mommy went down and carried me. My relatives gathered together because of me. My friends told them what had happened then they left the house, I didn’t even say goodbye or thank you to them ‘coz I was still crying so hard that I didn’t even know what I was doing. After some time, I calmed down. My mommy talked to me and gave me advice. She hugged me a lot and kissed me a lot on that day. It’s nice to think that every time I cry there’s so many people who wants to stop me from crying and showing there concern but then it came to my mind that the person I used to turn to when I’m crying and the only person who can stop me from crying is now the person who’s making me cry. It’s very painful to know that the person you thought you knew is now a stranger to you.
Hindi ko inakala na magagawa niya skn yng gn2..msket n nga yng fact n hnd nia nko bngyn ng chnce, n ndi n kme ngppncnan, n ayw nia n..tnggap q n un kht msket pro yng mlamn ko png may hinahatid na xa agd n iba,sobra nmn n ata un 2weeks plng kmeng break tpos gnun n.. lm kong la nkong krpatan n mangialm s gs2 niang gwin pro sna nmn naicp nia n may mssktn xang tao bgo nia gnwa..d q 2loy maicp pnu nia nagagawang sktan aq ng gnun,prng npkadali sknya ang gwin un..tpos s clasrum mkhng msya p xa..pg umiiyak aq,d man lng aq nilalapitan,sbe nga n ron, anung klaseng lalaki un..hai,tpos yng girl nmn napakaplastic!!nung kme pa ni mark,2wing mlungkot aq or 2wing nagaaway kme lge nia kong pnapangiti or prng tlgang nagaalala xa,,grbe sbrng plastic!!kya pla dte yng shout out nia”hai,lungkot nmn” kht nung cla p nung x nia,tpos nung ngbrk kme, tska nia lng pnalitan n “sya ng lyf” tpos my blog p xa na msya dw tlga xa,etc..HAI,sbe nga n iron pg ang x q dw tnpon q n,sn p nga b ppnta kundi s PLASTIC..kc dba ang basura nilalagay s PLASTIC!!shet!pnu p q magttwla n2?pnu p q mgmmhal ult? kng yng taong akala q kilalang-kilala ko e kya akng sktn ng gn2,wt mre p kya pg ndi q bstfrnd??
But then behind all of these, I’ve learned so many things..
It’s just so hard to accept it but then let God help us to accept things whole heartedly and remember that there’s always a rainbow after the rain. I don’t know how long I will be in storm but one thing's for sure, my friends and family will be there to shelter me. I have to be strong, and I believe I am.
**My heart now is like a wilting and dying rose. You trampled the most fragile in my body and you didn't even know it. I never wanted to leave your side and I'm so afraid to lose you but then the reality hit. Mark, if ever you read this I'm sorry for what I have said about you. I just hope that you'd understand me. Please be reminded that I still love you but I hate you.**
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