I still love you..but i hate you!!

i wrote this blog on November 27, 2006 on my friendster blog.

You're so mean to me..I don't know why do you even bother to hurt me..why do you have to let me know that you're mad at me?? so many times you've hurt me..so many tears I've cried..you're over doing it all again..is there anyway for us to stay the same as before?? But you gave up on me..I'm wondering, what did i ever do to you for you to hurt me that way? You've been hurting me eversince we broke up!! You're hurting me everyday, every minute, every second..and it pains me a lot!! I don't know why it doesn't stop me from loving you so much..you might call me crazy but i do love you so much!

i love you more and more each day..

are we too late? am i too soon?

every second counts! yah.. totaLLy.. absoLuteLy... defintLy true!!! the speed of our actions and life cycLe depends on our time(our Limited time)... in every aspect of life from the simplest to the broadest things tym is s0 much important and s0 much there dat it feels lyk tym is chasing you, time is faster dan you dat it makes you hurry more! it makes you do things faster c0z time is making u do so.. but... why is it that wen it comes to moving on... time is sLow........... s0 sLow......... you get hurt, you try to get heaLed, you try to forget it, try to stop your mending heart and try to move 0n... but the fact is, it's harder than wat u think and harder than wat u say... its s0 hard for us to move 0n speciaLLy wen it is s0 hurtfuL or wen we truLy love dem, fr0m a 360 km/h it changes to a 36 km/h Sometimes it feeLs Like we're heaLing and starting to muv on, but den a moment wouLd cum that wouLd change that feeLing and wouLd bring us to the starting point of the hurt, and begin to start agen from the top sLowering us d0wn.. i know, it's reaLLy annoying!!! how cum dey say time wiLL heaL everything esp the wounds in our hearts?? in my opinion, it doesn't,,you don't get over the pain..you juz learn to get along with the pain and live with it..through time..

i really wanted to move on..and im starting to..but how?? how can i move on if you still want to hurt me?? im already starting to let go of you but you wouldn't let me..you still want to hurt me..

w8,nahihirapan nko mag-english..bt kylngan mo pang sbhn sa mga kaibigan q n galit k skn?? bt kylngan mong manumbat? oo,alm ko na tinaggap mko ng buong-buo, tinggap mo ko despite ol the stupid things that i did..pero hndi q nmn hiniling sau n tnggapn mko bgo mko mhalin..thankful aq dhl tinggap mko kht gnun yng past lyf q pero d m nmn kylngn isumbat skn un..dhl tinanggap dn nmn kta..tska yng cnsb mong gnyn p igaganti q sau?? hello? aq p ngaun ang gumaganti,,la nga akng gngwa sau,dna nga kta pnapncn..tpos ssbhn m gumaganti aq..saang praan kta ginagantihan? sbhn m nga..yng kay marie ba? anu bng gnwa q sknya? e xa 'tong d kumakausap skn cmula nung pgtps ng bakasyon..grbe,sket nmn nun,,sbra k nmn, sna naicp m n nssktan aq,,sna lng!! gs2 sna kta kausapn kaso nung tnwg kta prang ibng tao n kausap q..gs2 q lng nmn aucn n ang lht kht pgtpos nun wg n tau mgusap kht klan..gs2 q lng n linawin ang lht..gs2 q ng lgyn ng formal CLOSURE yng relationship ntn as well as friendship..lm q nmn kc wla n tlgng pag-asa..s pnapakta m skn,ibang-iba kna tlga..sna lng mgng msya k s desisyon mo [mkha nmn msya kn tlga e] lge mong tandaan mahal na mahal pa rin kita..at kng hndi k man bblik kht klan,ttngapn q un..kakayanin kong wla ka..pero sna lng wg m nko sktan..wg m nlng akng tgnan..wg m nren akong pancnin..

Dans ma vie toute que j'ai besoin est vous. Mais vous m'avez laissé quand j'ai eu besoin de vous plus. Je ne sais pas si je si la parole immobile ceci. Mais, mon amour, je vous aime toujours.
----->>it means..
In my life all I need is you.. But you left me when I needed you most.. I don't know if I should still say this.. But, my love, I still love you..