I wrote this blog on November 8, 2006 on my friendster blog.
Once I dreamed of having him and it came true but now I was awakened from this dream I wished was true .
hai, grabe tlga yng feeling ng gn2..nkkta q nga xa pero d q xa mksma..ayko n xa mkta, lalo lng akng naiinlab sknya tska lalo lng akng nssktan..walang arw n ndi aq umiyak nang dhil sknya..sobrang mahal q p dn xa..nkkainz p yng mga mhilg pumaligid sknya,lm kong wla n kong ryt pero tlgang nagseselos aq..mga taong un tlgang wlng pkrmdm,"nging" kaibigan q p man dn cla..grbe..sbra..parang unti-unti nla kong pnapatay..i feel so weak nd helpless.i feel so alone..ndi q n mkya..lht nlng msket skn,buong ktwan q msket, pti ulo q,mata,lalamunan lalo n puso..parang mababaliw nko..grbe,ngaun lng aq nkranas ng gn2..d q tlga ineexpect n mggng gn2 resulta ng relationship nmin..sna ngng mgkaibigan nlng kme pra atleast tlgng mgttgal..kc ngaun nwlan nko ng boyfriend pti bestfriend..kaya sbrng sket tlga..ndi q nga lm kng may nrrmdman p xa skn kht unti, pero d nmn gnun kdali mwla un dba..pero ewn q sknya..hai,kng klan aq ngng serious tska aq gagantuhin..hai, bhla n c God..sna lng mkayanan q p..mdlas nga naiicp q n sna may amnesia nlng aq pra d q n mafeel yng pain..ayko tlga mwla xa pero la nmn nko mgwa kng yw nia n tlga..gnwa q n yng part q, kng mhl nia tlga q,ggwa xa praan pra mgkblikan kme..kaso ma-prinsipyo kc xa eh..halos lht kc ng guys,tngin nla love is NOT ruled by Love but by Principle..
hai,gn2 n routine q arw2--sa umaga iiyak,tpos sa classrum phinto hinto..den sa gbe ulet pgkaowe q..mdlas 2loy naiicp q, buti p xa msya..kc aq PINIPILIT q lng msya,mnsan nppgod nren akng mgng mlungkot,ndi q nmn tlga obligayson n mgng mlungkot un lng tlga nafifil q lalo n pg nasa classrum tska kpg la aq gngwa..kya nga gs2 q lge me bc,bti nlng lgng my prkts kaso andun dn xa..2ld knina,syang ung moment sna kme pa..tpos may js p ngaun tska grad ball..sna tlga kme pa..sbe nia, dme dw nia namiss sa 4th yr life,,duh,anu nmn kya un..tska pde nmn ndi nia mamiz yng mga gs2 nia,pde nmn n mgksma kme n maexperience yng mga gs2 nia as a 4th yr student..pero as 4 now,la tlga q mggwa..sbe nga ni ron,bgyn q nmn dw khhyan srili q,mgkaron nmn dw aq ng onting pride..e kaso nga WLA na eh! kng klan ok n lht..maayos n buhay q,pdeng pde n xa bmlik..ngbgo nko..ndi nq mapride,wla nkong kaaway..lm q n lht ng pgkakamali q kaso nsa sknya prn un kng pgbbgyn nia q..sna mbsa nia 'to..
nung ngbrk kme,sbe q "sayang" sbe nia ok lng dw..grbe,sket..prng gnun lng kdli sknya itapon lht ng pnagdaanan nmin..sbe nga ni nn,sna dw 4 once gmtin nmn nla ni bert yng puso nla,ndi utak,2ld ni erick..hai,gnun b tlga pg ms mtlino yng guy ksa s girl..pero bqt nmn c erick..sbgay d nmn cla parepareho..ei, mark dba klan lng npgusapn n ntn bout dun s u'd stil gve m chnce if evr mgkmli aq,pmyg k nmn pro d m nmn pla 22parin..ur so unfair,umasa kc aq s cnb m..aq ilang bses kta pnagbgyan bt kw d m mgwa?? mnsan lng aq mgkamali tpos gnyan kpa skn..pnglwang bses p lng aq hihngi ng chnce sau,yw m pa..
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